Inspiration for Her

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you I've had some days where I was so happy and content with my life and my living that I could burst with glee!

 

However, if you turned a few pages of my journal the pages in my journal would tell you there were days where I was so deep in sadness and emptiness that I felt I could in no wise lift up myself!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you that I used my journal to talk and express the severity of my pain because I often felt the person causing the pain didn't even care!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you how I wrote letters to God telling him all about my plight here on earth because I so desired to be some place else!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would reveal to you the names of all the people that were the source of my pain and suffering!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you how disappointed and let down I've been by those I loved the most!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would point out to you the pages that were "stained" by my tears as I wrote to appease my emotions!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you how I sometimes begged God to be loosed and freed from places that felt like HELL!

 

If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you how I have longed to be loved by men who made vows to love me but in actuality had NO CAPACITY to love God or themselves!

 

And If the pages of my journal could talk they would tell you that I always found "strength and relief" in writing on the pages of my journal!

 

So since the pages of my journal can't speak (at least not in an audible voice) then let me tell you myself; the pages in my journal can only speak of "seasons and times" in my life but the testimony of my victory and my ability to overcome and triumph over every negative or hard time or season in my life will forever speak OUT LOUD through my living and this is something that the pages of my journal may never be able to say or convey!

 

Yet, I do "appreciate and value" what the pages of my journal has allowed (me) to say when I had no other place to say it but on the pages of my journal!

 

Written by Sharon Peters-Ruff